Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I Like Twilight. . . You Gotta Problem With That?

So.  I'm a woman of a "certain age", as they say and yes, I love the Twilight Saga.  I also love Harry Potter.  My favorite movie is Mary Poppins.  Quite honestly, I'd prefer to watch a Disney movie most days than anything else.  I like the Discovery Channel.  I love to learn new things.

I love a cheesy love story.  I love watching a show that reminds me of what it's like to be innocent and care free. I enjoy it all.  Of course. . .I take criticism.  From EVERYONE.  People make fun of me.  A lot.  I've been trying to figure out, for a while now, why it is that I prefer the more "childish" things in life?  I think that I've finally got a pretty good grasp on it.  I want to have what I never have had.

I want that innocence back.  I want to feel light and airy.  I don't want to watch anything that brings me MORE stress and anxiety.  I want things to be simple.  I like to feel that inner joy at the simple pleasures of life.  I want it to be. . . .simple.  I want to pretend that things aren't all wonky and painful and stress filled.

I like watching Bella fumble through her life because, well, I fumble through mine.  I like watching her fall in love with a man who is kind.  Honest.  Traditional.  Chivalrous.  A VIRGIN!!  I mean, yeah, okay. . .so he's a vampire, but if that's the part that you're hung up on then. . . .GET OVER IT!!  It's a sweet love story that has drawn me in and made me wish that I could have met a man like him when I was 16.  Instead, I met my first husband.  Enough said.

I like watching Mary Poppins love on those kids and teach those parents to pay more attention to them.  I like that she's "practically perfect in every way".  I find it comforting to think that someone out there truly, deeply, honestly and without ulterior motive loves a child.  I wish that I had that when I was a child.  Instead, I got my step-father.  Enough said.

I love watching Harry Potter learn that he's more than just the "boy under the cupboard".  It makes me warm inside, every single time I watch the scenes that are at Christmas time.  The true unadulterated joy on his face reminds me that there IS peace in the world.  I find comfort in the fact that Harry is okay without a family to call his own.  I feel renewed when I watch the friendships between all the kids  in the films.  It gives me hope that, in the end, we can all find a place to "fit in" and be accepted, even appreciated.  Just the way we are.  Right now.  Today.  It reminds me that my strengths might be your weakness and vice-versa, but that we all have a part to play.  I just wish that we could all stop COMPETING and start working together, for the greater good.  I wish that I had had friends like Harry has. Instead, I get. . . .well. . . .NOT Hermione.  Enough said.

So, yeah. . .I watch kids movies.  I FEEL them with my whole being.  I read kids books.  I live them through the pages.  It brings me joy.  It brings me peace.  I find comfort in them.  I find them reassuring and uplifting.  So, go ahead.. . . .make fun of me.  I don't care.  Perhaps, they're feeling a void in me.  One that can't be filled any other way.  I'm okay with that.

Take a deep breath. . . . it's just another day in Perfect!!!!    

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