You have those friends and/or family, right? Those people who NEVER seem to have anything bad happen to them. The ones who actually get money sent to them in the mail FROM the insurance company and when they call them, the insurance company says "Well, we don't know why it's yours, but it's yours. Enjoy!" Hm. Let me think? Um, yeah...no. That shit never happens to me. I'm the one who gets double and triple billed for the same item and when I complain, I get told "Oh sorry. No refunds." WHAT!!
These same people are the people who can lie and cheat and steal and still get ahead. These people are the ones that other people say things about like "Oh she'll get hers one day." and "What goes around comes around!" Funny thing though.....it doesn't. I've never seen anything bad happen to these people. No, they're the ones who get new, high paying jobs in the middle of the worst economy in decades. These people have more friends than you can shake a stick at. These people seem to have everyone BEGGING to be a part of their lives. They're magnets.
Magnets for goodness and prosperity. Magnets for fun and friends. Magnets for happiness and "the good life". Why? Why is it that good, kind hearted people always seem to be the ones that get shit on? How is it that these "flawless" people never get caught in their lies? Why is it so hard for the rest of us, flawed people, to even imagine that the "flawless" one could be, well, flawed? Is it more them or us? Do we WANT there to be "perfect" people in Perfect? Is it comforting us in some sick twisted way? Do we find it something to strive for? Perhaps.
I, however, have learned that these "flawless" people, tend to be cold hearted and fake. I've seen them lie to their "best friends" and never even feel guilty about it. I've seen them be so good at lying that, even when they do get "caught" they simply talk their way out of it. If there's one thing that they ARE truly flawless at, it's getting away with murder. They simply replace you with a new friend once you've caught onto their back stabbing lying ways. I've even gone so far as to try to help other people that got sucked into the flawless abyss and help them see the flaw behind the facade. No go. These flawless people shine so brightly and therefore, they blind those around them. I, myself, was blinded by that light. I learned the hard way, that that light, was simply a distraction. A way to keep anyone from looking too closely to the "flawless one". It's almost painful to watch, to see someone else walk down the same road you've walked down. Waiting. Waiting for the pain to hit them, too.
So. Where do we stand then? Hm. Good question. Several people will read this and assume that I'm jealous of said "flawless" people. They'd be dead ass wrong, of course, but they're going to think that nonetheless. Still others will not have any idea what I'm referring to. Now, these folks could be in a couple of categories, 1) they've never had the "honor" of meeting a "flawless" person or 2) they are one. You see, I've also noticed that these jewels don't seem to notice themselves. They aren't very self aware, you see. They're very "self full", not selfISH (that's for you, my friend. You know who you are!!) They tend to run around with their nose so far in the air, they just don't see those little people like us, that they're crushing under their flawless feet! I have noticed that once I removed myself from the constant "crushing", I rebounded. I bloomed. I flourished, even. I grew into my own. I felt my self worth, for the first time in years. I didn't feel small or bad or dumb or fat (okay, well....I always feel fat, but that's another story) I didn't feel AS fat. I felt whole. I felt good enough. No...actually I felt pretty damn good.
I know that I'm not flawless. I don't want to be. I never will be. I'm glad for that. Blissfully glad. I've surrounded myself with some pretty amazing people. Amazingly damaged people. Amazingly honest people. Amazingly complex, deep, self aware, patient, noble, honorable, caring, sensitive people. They make me feel loved. I make them feel loved. I cherish every flaw they have. I honor it. I appreciate it. I'm THANKFUL for it. It makes them real. It makes them genuine. It makes them.....my friends.
Take a deep breath.......it's just another day in Perfect!!!!
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