Wow. Here I sit at yet another crossroads in my life. Here I sit watching you grow, evolve, change, blossom. . . .mature. I must admit, I'm proud. I'm joyful. I'm sad. . . . .and I'm scared. I'm afraid of what the future holds for you. I'm fearful that you're going to lose that sweet, innocence that makes you so completely YOU! I'm anxious about what the world would turn you into and what it will take away from you. But, I'm excited, too. Deeply, profoundly excited.
I'm excited to see you become the best you you can. I'm so very grateful for the honor I've been given, in being allowed to mother you, nurture you, learn from you, hold your sweet, tiny hand and touch your golden, pure heart. I want you to guard that heart. Protect it from harm. You, my darling, are a giver. A natural healer. A sweet, sweet, tender spirit in a world filled with hatred, rage and darkness. You, my sweet daughter are all that is good and kind and LIGHT in the world. You are. I know that as life carries you forward you will use this "gift of light" in some wonderful way. I know that you're going to "love on" something fiercely; whether that be animals or humans remains to be seen, but I KNOW, in my soul, that you're not complete unless you're sharing your light! With that, though, please don't give your "light" away. Don't just entrust it to "any-old-person". Especially, when "love" is involved. Make that person, EARN your love. Make sure that their love is as pure, deep and honest as yours is. I wish that there was some way that I could accompany you through every day of your life to "protect you" from harm. Hurt. Sorrow. A way for me to stand vigil over your tender, fragile heart. Alas, I cannot and you wouldn't be able to live a full life, if I did so. Knowing that I'll have to "turn you loose" into this cold hard world sooner than I'd like, breaks my heart.
But, you've got a strength in you, I've never had.
You possess a fire that burns deep within your soul. An inner core that keeps you level, grounded and whole. I wish nothing more than for THIS gift to continue on in your daily life. Stand up for what you know is right. Never back down from a fight, when it's the RIGHT FIGHT! Never stop standing up for those without a voice or for someone being bullied. I'm often humbled by your internal fortitude and your ability to see the beauty and value in all things and your willingness to stand up for what you believe in. Your strength is overwhelming to me at times! I find that I'm learning FROM you, more than I could ever TEACH you. Yours is a very old soul and I cherish the time I've gotten to be in your presence. Stand tall and be proud of yourself! But, know that I'm proud of you, too.
Your wisdom is self evident in every aspect of your life. Your quiet thoughtfulness reminds me that, at times, silence IS GOLDEN! Your shy way is both disarming and charming. Knowing when to "shut up" and "walk away" is a gift that most adults don't have, let alone a thirteen year old! I know that you'll do well as you grow and mature into the "who" you're going to be. Don't let the world tell you that being 'quiet and shy' is a bad thing. Don't ever stop being that sweet, quiet girl who you are today.
But, let's not "leave the nest" too soon. I still have a few things I'd like to teach you. Show you. Instill into you. I want you to know how much you're loved. I would like you to know that this home will be YOUR home, for the rest of your life. I want you to feel so profoundly safe here, that you never question whether or not to share a secret with me, or open your "closet" and let those skeletons fly. I want you to realize. . . .THIS IS YOUR SOFT PLACE TO FALL! I will never expect perfection out of you. I will never punish you for "failing" when you've tried something new and it just "wasn't quite your thing". I want you to know that, although, I might WANT to be with you every moment, I cannot. I want you to know that you're going to be okay without me. You're going to be MORE OKAY WITHOUT ME than I'll ever be without you! You are, in fact, a large part of my heart -- outside of my body. . . .outside walking around, looking beautiful and inquisitive and fresh and exuberant; but a part of my heart, no less. I need you to know that I'm doing my best. Being your Mommy hasn't always been easy. Life does not, in fact, come with an instruction booklet and I've made thousands of mistakes with you. There have been times that I've been too hard on you. Times when I was "too busy" to listen to you properly. Please forgive me for failing you. Please forgive my short comings. My moments of exhaustion and frustration that have taken a toll on you. Please forgive me for not hearing your sweet, timid voice amidst all the turmoil of the world and for not always being there for you when you needed me. Please know that I've loved you since before I was even pregnant with you and that I dreamed of you before you born. You were wanted and loved and cherished as a huge part of my life, before you WERE a huge part of my life.
So, we've embarked on the "last leg" of our journey towards adulthood. We've started off for the "beginning of the end", as they say. . . . . but I hope that even as you walk your path towards being an adult, you realize that no matter what. . . . . .I'll always be your Mommy and I'll cherish the moments we've spent together ----- learning how to be a better Mommy and a better person. A better human being. If nothing else 'sticks with you', I want you to know this. . . . . .YOU. ARE. LOVED!!!!
As "my baby", I'm clinging to you more than is probably necessary (okay. . .probably more than is healthy!!) but know that it's out of a genuine spot inside my spirit that doesn't want to 'stop being your Mommy'. I don't want to stop being the one that you look to for advice, for comfort, for support. I don't want to let go of your sweet, tiny hand. So, it's with much trepidation, fear, pride, honor, anxiety, humbleness, tenderness, strength and love that I will, some day, release you into this world. To watch you become truly, completely, deeply, strongly. . . . .YOU!
Take a deep breath. . . . .it's just another day in Perfect!!!!
I'm excited to see you become the best you you can. I'm so very grateful for the honor I've been given, in being allowed to mother you, nurture you, learn from you, hold your sweet, tiny hand and touch your golden, pure heart. I want you to guard that heart. Protect it from harm. You, my darling, are a giver. A natural healer. A sweet, sweet, tender spirit in a world filled with hatred, rage and darkness. You, my sweet daughter are all that is good and kind and LIGHT in the world. You are. I know that as life carries you forward you will use this "gift of light" in some wonderful way. I know that you're going to "love on" something fiercely; whether that be animals or humans remains to be seen, but I KNOW, in my soul, that you're not complete unless you're sharing your light! With that, though, please don't give your "light" away. Don't just entrust it to "any-old-person". Especially, when "love" is involved. Make that person, EARN your love. Make sure that their love is as pure, deep and honest as yours is. I wish that there was some way that I could accompany you through every day of your life to "protect you" from harm. Hurt. Sorrow. A way for me to stand vigil over your tender, fragile heart. Alas, I cannot and you wouldn't be able to live a full life, if I did so. Knowing that I'll have to "turn you loose" into this cold hard world sooner than I'd like, breaks my heart.
But, you've got a strength in you, I've never had.
You possess a fire that burns deep within your soul. An inner core that keeps you level, grounded and whole. I wish nothing more than for THIS gift to continue on in your daily life. Stand up for what you know is right. Never back down from a fight, when it's the RIGHT FIGHT! Never stop standing up for those without a voice or for someone being bullied. I'm often humbled by your internal fortitude and your ability to see the beauty and value in all things and your willingness to stand up for what you believe in. Your strength is overwhelming to me at times! I find that I'm learning FROM you, more than I could ever TEACH you. Yours is a very old soul and I cherish the time I've gotten to be in your presence. Stand tall and be proud of yourself! But, know that I'm proud of you, too.
Your wisdom is self evident in every aspect of your life. Your quiet thoughtfulness reminds me that, at times, silence IS GOLDEN! Your shy way is both disarming and charming. Knowing when to "shut up" and "walk away" is a gift that most adults don't have, let alone a thirteen year old! I know that you'll do well as you grow and mature into the "who" you're going to be. Don't let the world tell you that being 'quiet and shy' is a bad thing. Don't ever stop being that sweet, quiet girl who you are today.
But, let's not "leave the nest" too soon. I still have a few things I'd like to teach you. Show you. Instill into you. I want you to know how much you're loved. I would like you to know that this home will be YOUR home, for the rest of your life. I want you to feel so profoundly safe here, that you never question whether or not to share a secret with me, or open your "closet" and let those skeletons fly. I want you to realize. . . .THIS IS YOUR SOFT PLACE TO FALL! I will never expect perfection out of you. I will never punish you for "failing" when you've tried something new and it just "wasn't quite your thing". I want you to know that, although, I might WANT to be with you every moment, I cannot. I want you to know that you're going to be okay without me. You're going to be MORE OKAY WITHOUT ME than I'll ever be without you! You are, in fact, a large part of my heart -- outside of my body. . . .outside walking around, looking beautiful and inquisitive and fresh and exuberant; but a part of my heart, no less. I need you to know that I'm doing my best. Being your Mommy hasn't always been easy. Life does not, in fact, come with an instruction booklet and I've made thousands of mistakes with you. There have been times that I've been too hard on you. Times when I was "too busy" to listen to you properly. Please forgive me for failing you. Please forgive my short comings. My moments of exhaustion and frustration that have taken a toll on you. Please forgive me for not hearing your sweet, timid voice amidst all the turmoil of the world and for not always being there for you when you needed me. Please know that I've loved you since before I was even pregnant with you and that I dreamed of you before you born. You were wanted and loved and cherished as a huge part of my life, before you WERE a huge part of my life.
So, we've embarked on the "last leg" of our journey towards adulthood. We've started off for the "beginning of the end", as they say. . . . . but I hope that even as you walk your path towards being an adult, you realize that no matter what. . . . . .I'll always be your Mommy and I'll cherish the moments we've spent together ----- learning how to be a better Mommy and a better person. A better human being. If nothing else 'sticks with you', I want you to know this. . . . . .YOU. ARE. LOVED!!!!
As "my baby", I'm clinging to you more than is probably necessary (okay. . .probably more than is healthy!!) but know that it's out of a genuine spot inside my spirit that doesn't want to 'stop being your Mommy'. I don't want to stop being the one that you look to for advice, for comfort, for support. I don't want to let go of your sweet, tiny hand. So, it's with much trepidation, fear, pride, honor, anxiety, humbleness, tenderness, strength and love that I will, some day, release you into this world. To watch you become truly, completely, deeply, strongly. . . . .YOU!
Take a deep breath. . . . .it's just another day in Perfect!!!!
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