I Have Loved....(POEM)

I have loved lightly,
Effervescent bubbles in a glass of champagne,
floating lightly, colliding and bouncing back.

I have loved violently,
Harsh words, harder fists, painful, tragic, passionate hatred filled days and nights,
never ending blurs of torture and self loathing.

I have loved deeply,
Traveling down through an abyss; falling head over heels and back again,
deeper and deeper until I lost myself.

I have loved honestly,
Showing my true transparent self so genuinely, open, alive, free to fly, stepping off, praying that I never touch down,
painfully aware of my vulnerability and not protective of myself at all.

I have loved selfishly,
Only taking what I could get, ever wanting more, an addict in true form.
Getting my fix, enough is never enough.

I have loved unilaterally,
Never feeling it back, constantly seeking that which will never be found.
Abandoned and alone; cold drizzly forest at night, ever searching the depths of darkness.

I have loved..........
and I'm all the better for it.