My Imagination (POEM)

I need to stop pretending that I’m not imagining that you were just pretending to love me.

Childlike, needing your love and acceptance.

Silent tantrums, thrown in the name of love; longing for your embrace. Acceptance. Love.

Silence from you….hidden away with invisible scars everyone else sees.

Blind are you to my anguish.

Turmoil for me…..Impatient, growing more weary every day.

I hide behind the smile, the laugh that everyone knows as me

This little girl craves that which she‘s never had.

My imagination my only escape.

I close my eyes and pretend again……………

Pretend I’m good enough…………

Pretend you’re proud of me………….

Pretend that you care about my pain, as if it were your own…………..

Pretend that you love me.

Pretend that I’m not an orphan……………

Pretend that you’re my mother.....not just the person who gave me life.

Alas, my imagination isn't that good.