Is it the hormones that make me a woman? Maybe. Is it that I'm soft and round (too round!) and that I smell good. Hm. I don't know? Is a woman made by her breasts or her ovaries or uterus? I'd like to say no, to these....but....possibly.
What makes me a woman?
I had a complete hysterectomy not long after Savannah was born. I would by lying if I said that after this surgery I didn't feel "less" womanly. I felt empty somehow. Hollow. The interesting idea is....the mere fact that I FELT so much, from simply having a surgery, may, in fact, be the strongest indicator that I AM a woman.
Now men, don't misunderstand me. I'm not saying that y'all don't "FEEL" anything. Absurd. Perhaps, more of what I'm saying is that I acknowledge my own absurdity. I fully "out myself" to being an overly touchy feely creature. I wouldn't have it any other way.
I like being a woman. Even if I can't really wrap my arms around what "makes" me that way. I had to realize that I'm more than hormones. My body doesn't really produce them the way it used to; before the surgery. I had to learn to love my body anyway. I had to feel my way around this world AS a woman, even when I didn't FEEL like a woman on the inside. Is it the strength of my resolve that makes me a woman? Perhaps. I love being a woman. I get to be silly and emotional at every special occasion. Brilliant. I get to cry at every happy ending. Joyous. I get to shed tears of joy and pride every time my girls accomplish anything!! Stunning. I get to hold my friends hand and cry with her when she finds out that she has breast cancer. Shattering. I get to laugh at that 'same ole story', you tell me, every time we see each other. You know the one....the one that makes me tinkle a little bit and always makes you hiccup because you've laughed too hard. Priceless. Being a woman means, I never have to apologize for feeding the neighbors kids. (And you, too, if you make the mistake of coming over near a meal, or snack time. Okay, don't come over if you don't want to eat!!) It means that I can bake a cake and make a family feel welcome and actually MAKE THEM FEEL WELCOME! Comforting. Being soft and round, means that the dog always has a soft place to sleep. (And the girls, too!! Sorry, babe.) Warm! Maybe, it's the fact that I like Coach bags. There I said it. Fun!
I'm not sure, exactly, what 'makes' me a woman, but, I wouldn't have it any other way.
Take a deep, cleansing breath...........it's just another day in Perfect.
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