The Idea of Loving You (POEM)

The idea of loving you.
The chasm that exists between our lips,
The moment before we kiss.
The heat I feel from your body,
Pressed up against mine.
Feeling your heart beat faster,
In response to gasping breath.

The idea of loving you.
The eternal, irrevocable, blind love that I feel for you.
Imaging your arms around me,
Holding me through the night.
Keeps out all the pain and anguish that the world brings me.
Praying that we don’t ever have to wake up,
And see the pale light of reality.
The cracks that we once thought of as small ones,
The light shines through now, for all to see.

Closing my eyes and feeling you near me,
Even when you’re so far away.
My mind play tricks on me,
A way to keep me safe.
The idea of loving you is safer than actually feeling it.
The memory of what we had,
Only a creation of my own.
Never really having you hold me is better in the end.

The idea of loving you,
Has always been better than the reality.
The idea of you loving me,
Has never even crossed my mind.